Overcoming Anxiety
There is absolutely not one way that each of us can heal from anxiety. I will not pretend to offer to you what you need to do in order to find peace within. What I can do is offer the different routes that I have taken as a way to piece my life back together in a way that fit better than it ever has before.
When I first started dealing with anxiety I turned to self medication. You guessed it, alcohol. Did that work? NO. But, if I'm being honest, I would say that it did hold my true feelings of both the hard times and the good times at bay for a while. Until it just didn't do it anymore and I was far worse off than I had been.
Next I tried counseling with a psychologist. I made her cry and have to leave the room to calm herself down because I scared the tar out of her with my morbid fears of death and dying. She decided medication was my best bet-and I decided it wasn't. So, we parted ways.
Then I went to a psychic-she was insightful, however, nothing healed in me as a result. I went to many psychics and healers on my quest. I got a great amount of insight from these wonderful people, but as I have learned, no body can provide the true authentic healing for you, but you.
I then had quantum healing biofeedback to get to a cellular level of understanding. This also did not provide more than what I could do in terms of diet, exercise and suppliments that could help even me out.
Then I went to a Shaman (Native American Medicine Man) for energetic extraction. This was awesome! It is like energetic sewing, but backwards. Pulling out of you all of the 'goop' and energetic messes that have been in your body from life's traumas. I left that day feeling absolutely amazing! But, it didn't take long for me to bring back all of the fearful thoughts and behaviors because by this point, I had no idea how to live my life without them anymore.
I went back to that shaman for something more intense: soul retrieval to get soul pieces back that had left during life's trauma's. Boy was that a slap in the face! It made me have to deal with the trauma that had left for a reason and left me unable to function in daily life. I did everything that was asked of me to move forward into healing, but it left me completely unable to function. This is not the case for the majority of people, it just so happened to be the case for me.
The I decided to go back to traditional and see a Psychiatrist. He suggested something called EMDR- eye movement desensitization reprocessing. This was sort of like hypnotherapy in a way. It required many sessions and I did them. The therapist that I went to began meeting me for previews three other times before the actual EMDR began. The day that we were to start the EMDR she began with saying to me “I'm not sure if this will work for you because you are one of the worst people I've ever worked with!” Yes, I was impressed with that, very professional. She also told me medication would be helpful for me. I did the sessions several times and they were helpful to an extent.
Then I tried acupuncture and got on herbs for my anxiety and they held me really well for quite a while-as my life was pretty calm at that time as well. It was very helpful, calming and wonderful and I still get acupuncture to this day for many various reasons.
And finally, after seven years and finally giving up on there ever being a normal life in my own future, I went to my family doctor and asked for a prescription. I took a child's dose of this medication and to my surprise, I have come back from the dead. I am not advocating for you who reads this to go get on medication. For me, it was my very last resort and it saved the quality of my life. There is something in my eyes that I thought died a long time ago. I am now motivated and happy and do truly feel like I have been brought back from the dead.
For you however, take that with a grain of salt. I have done a whole lot of work to that point.
Since then I have done crazy things like fire walks to face and overcome my fears. I like to challenge myself out in the land of the living and it has been so liberating! I have met so many new people and have laughed more in this past year and a half that I had in the other seven years combined.
It is my mission to pay it forward for other people who felt like I did for so long. I am not here to get you to do any of the remedies that I have done to heal. I am here as the supporter and encourager for your healing and your return to your greatest life.
